I never thought I could be bisexual, perhaps because of the closed culture I was raised in. I was taught that boys should only like girls and vice versa. Many Asian families have a mindset of teaching boys to be tough and emotionally detached, so many men have difficulty expressing and understanding their own feelings. I, on the other hand, pretended to hide my emotions but secretly embraced my sensitive side through artistic performance. Even so, one thing remained for me to confirm: my sexual attraction. When I went to an all-boys school, the only people we were expected to ad… 続きを読む

I was a freshman at a boys' high school when I met a senior. He was kind and supportive, and we eventually started chatting more privately online. I was naive, but a curious cat. He was the one who introduced me to porn and started asking more about my private parts. To gain my trust, he told me he had helped a friend of mine in the same way. The first time he gave me special instructions was late one night, while I was on the computer in my living room. Following his directions, I secretly put my hand under my pants and started rubbing. He told me not to stop, but my hand felt sore, a… 続きを読む

I was born in a male body, but growing up, I always felt something was off inside me. At first, I thought it was just because I was around mostly women or maybe my self-esteem. That was partly true, but the bigger truth was that there is a girl living in my heart. I slowly realized this when I noticed that most of my actions and thoughts were more feminine than my cousins'. It was hard to admit this in my traditional family, especially since those girl cousins bullied me, calling me "pondan." That really hurt. So, I started acting tough, taking up Kung Fu, Karate, and fitness. I… 続きを読む